Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Rested Up and Stressed Out

I got back from my vacation on Sunday. Ahhh.. exactly what the doctor ordered. We spent a great portion of the trip just hanging out in the house doing precisely nothing. Reading, playing gameboy, listening to audio books, watching Columbo, and just chillaxing. We also did some lovely sight-seeing, picked wild blueberries and went to a few concerts of sorts, so I deem it an all-around successful vacation.

We have 42 days left until the wedding now, and my stress level is unfortunately fairly astronomical, but as they say, this too shall pass.

It's becoming more manageable with each day, really. I talked to my manager and my work schedule will get cut down some from about a week from now up until the wedding. That will help significantly, even if the decreased hours/pay hurts my pocketbook a little bit. I also finished several craft projects with my mom today, and that's a load off my mind.

If I was just dealing with wedding projects, plans, and errands, I think I'd be alright. However, there's been an inordinate number of crises in my family lately. My grandfather suffered a stroke, and while he's made great improvements, he' still has a long way to come toward recovery. My brother-in-law was injured while serving in Afghanistan. My great uncle's Alzheimer's has taken a turn for the worse. My mother had surgery. Opie's stepmother's father passed away this week. Various other family members are facing health issues I won't splash about on the internet, but their troubles weigh on my mind too. I'm training for the promotion I received at work. Opie's workload is pretty ridiculous. Outwardly, I handle stress pretty darn well, but all of my health conditions that are stress-aggravated (um.. I guess that's basically all of them) act up, which in a vicious cycle, stresses me out even more. Having my acne, psoriasis, reflux and IBS start misbehaving a month before my wedding doesn't exactly excite me.

With all of this going on, executing a perfect, absolutely beautiful wedding isn't exactly the highest on my priority list. Sure, getting married in 42 days is right up there at the top of the list, but if I run out of time to finish every last craft project, I'll live. We'll live. There are many things that take precedence over programs, place settings and tablescapes right now. I'm certainly trying to get everything done, but I refuse to stress myself out further about accomplishing every last thing, unless it's of dire importance.


Aunt Becky said...

The things that everyone will remember about your wedding will have nothing to do with the small details. It's very, very stressful, I remember being worried sick, even as a non-wedding person.

Hang in there.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there! We're 21 days away at this point and it's getting tough to handle the stress. I want to eat every piece of chocolate that comes my way (why couldn't I be the kind of person that doesn't eat when they're stressed???). I still have alot of projects to finish up but I'm trying to be realistic and viewing things from the perspective of whether or not anyone will even notice if 'X' is missing. It's been helping me prioritize a bit but I can't help but feel like I'm never going to get everything done!